the chronicles of nautti – StarCraft 2 blog
6Sep/110

Feel the adrenaline!

I finally start to understand what makes this game so good. Not just for the spectators but for the players too. For these first 14 games I have been 1on1 laddering have been really amazing and so instructive. Everytime I push that "Find Match" my heart starts to pump faster and my palms are starting to sweat. I like this feeling. It's like I'm child again playing for the first time. I haven't had these feelings for a long time when I have been playing other games. But it gets more intence. When the game actually starts you go for weird hyperactive state of mind where you are multitasking and doing things so fast. You are so focused and concentrated. If you happen to lose you, just GG and be thankfull for a good lesson. Time to think through what went wrong and how to prevent that happening again. But if you win, it's a totally different story. All that concentration and adrenaline blows up after seeing the GG - I feel great. My hands are shaking and my pulse is closer to 200. Can you get addicted of this feeling? Does it fade away after a while?

31Aug/110

What a lesson!

Finally I managed to get the courage, will and time to play my placements matches for 1on1 ladder and o-boy what a ride that was. How much you can learn from a 5 placement matches? Well, more than you can ever imagine. If I could take back time I would play those placement matches way earlier. This way I only managed to create the worst enemy for myself - ME!

So, I decided today was going to be the day I start my journey on 1on1 ladder. I have been saving those 5 placement matches so I could learn more stuff. So I wouldn't be such a noob. The competetive side in me made me to learn more stuff and study all kinds of things. I wanted too much too soon. I was practicing so I could be better at practicing. Sounds weird, doesn't it? By all this studying and learning I was only doing harm to myself. I know that now. I was stacking up my expectations and build up an illusion that I have learned so much and I might be even placed in silver or what the heck, why not even gold? Seriously, I somehow managed to turn things inside my head that way. I thought that if I do know all of these things and have practiced with my friends and AI, I could really be better than bronze. How wrong was I ...